“I’m bruised and broken, overwhelmed by it all; breathe life into me again by your living word.”~ Psalms 119:107 (TPT)
Raw prayer. Raw journaling. These were two things that came up this week in our sermon at church. As we discussed growing deeper in a relationship with God, our pastor talked about being honest with our Father about everything we are feeling. It stuck with me.
Being honest about the things that hurt us and make us mad is not an easy thing to do. Personally, I tend to internalize those things and ignore them, preferring to focus on the more positive things in life. I don’t like acknowledging things that make me unhappy or upset.
This week my heart has been hurting a lot. Not for myself but for people around me in my life. I’ve seen the enemy attack the minds, hearts, and spirits of people I love and care about. I’ve been beaten down by the injustice of it all. It shouldn’t have to be this way.
This evening my heart sank even more as my mom told me that New York passed a law legalizing abortions up until the day of birth. So much hurt and anger filled me it was hard to even think. My heart shattered at this example of how broken our world has become.
I still am struggling with a weight on my heart. I came up to my room, sat down, and remembered, as I looked at my journal sitting on the end of my bed, what we had talked about this week at church.
Raw prayer. Raw journaling.
Father help us. Help me. This is all so overwhelming.
As I wrote out my prayer, I remembered something the Holy Spirit has been whispering to my heart all week.
Just that one word. Nothing else. But every time I have felt that weight, that word has come to mind. Although my heart still hurts, the Holy Spirit has been gently reminding me that although it may seem like the enemy is overpowering us, we have the victory.
“Through your glorious name and your awesome power we can push through to any victory and defeat every enemy.”~ Paslms 44:5 (TPT)
My heart still hurts, but my God is victorious. These things are unjust and unfair, but He has already won the battle. Our world is broken, but my Father has already defeated the enemy.
Thank you, God, for that promise of victory. And thank you for understanding and joining us in our pain and brokenness. Thank you for your overwhelming love.