Tomorrow

Tomorrow isn’t promised to anyone.

During my highly complicated morning routine of rolling out of bed and immediately searching for coffee, I overhead another crew member talking with one of our cafe workers. She mentioned that she tells her girls that tomorrow is never promised to anyone, so you shouldn’t waste a single moment today or put things off for tomorrow just because you can.

Wow.

That was something said so simply, but it was also highly impactful. The last couple evenings, my reception job on board has been a bit more hectic than usual and has presented a lot of new challenges that I have to figure out on my own. By the end of my shifts, I have been exhausted and extremely stressed about everything going on and whether or not I’m doing everything correctly.

Last evening specifically, I was sitting at the desk about 30 minutes before the end of my shift, completely exhausted from stress and the events of the day. Our Chief Officer came by, and like every time he walks by, he checked to see if I was still smiling. When I wasn’t, he asked me how I was doing and I shared with him how I was feeling. This opened up an awesome conversation where he reminded me that even if the things I’m doing are extremely important and even if I mess it up, life moves on. We can only do our best, with a smile on our face and then we have to let it be.

This morning as I sat with a little free time to rest, Matthew 6:33-34 came to mind:

So above all, constantly chase after the realm of God’s kingdom and the righteousness that proceeds from him. Then all these less important things will be given to you abundantly. Refuse to worry about tomorrow, but deal with each challenge that comes your way, one day at a time. Tomorrow will take care of itself.

Matthew 6: 33-34 (TPT)

Earlier in that passage in Matthew 6, it talks about everything we need being provided by God. Jesus points out that our lives are much more than the meals we eat, the clothes we wear, and the problems we face. And he then asks where our worrying is getting us. Are we adding anything to our life by stressing about the problems and challenges we face?

Worry has been something I have dealt with for years, and it takes a lot for me to focus in on one thing at a time. Having these reminders this week have relaxed my spirit. I am so thankful for the reminder that God is always present, always loves me, and is always providing for me. Every problem I face is nothing compared to him.

Along with this, I have limited time here on earth. Tomorrow isn’t promised, so it definitely isn’t worth worrying about today. Why would I want to waste time worrying about it if I have no guarantee it will come? And, if it is possible I won’t have tomorrow, why would I want to waste the precious moments I have by worrying about my problems today? If I know God is providing for me and my challenges are nothing to him, then I have no need to worry.

If something goes wrong, life moves on. God is providing for me today. If I am blessed to live tomorrow, then he will provide for me then. If tomorrow doesn’t come, then I will be with him.

The only thing that matters in the end is him. That’s it. Plain and simple. When all is said and done, the most important thing I can do is pursue God, because he is the one thing I can rely on no matter what. And like Matthew 6:33 says, once I am focused on him, he will provide for me abundantly.

He’s got it.

That means I can walk through today with a genuine smile 🙂

Learning

There’s something very challenging about living on a ship in the middle of west Africa 7,193 km from home. Surprisingly enough, though, it hasn’t been the distance, being homesick, or missing anyone like I anticipated. And it also hasn’t been making new friends, adjusting to showers under two minutes, or not having a Chick-fil-a nearby.

The biggest challenge for me in the two weeks I’ve been here is actually how much I’ve been learning. Being in a new place away from everything familiar makes you oddly aware of your own habits, thoughts, fears, weaknesses, and things that make you happy. You also learn a lot about life and how different it can be once you step out of your comfort zone.

Here’s a list of things I’ve learned in the last two weeks:

  1. We use a very stupid form of measurement in the U.S., and I am now having to learn how to convert everything. I am also having to learn how to write dates with the day, then month, then year. Honestly, America makes things way more complicated than they need to be, and I am single-handedly determined to change the U.S. unit of measurement to the metric system.
  2. After messing up something really important for my new job, I realized letting people down is one of my biggest fears. (Not sure how it wasn’t obvious before, but like I said, a new surrounding makes these things stick out).
  3. You get close to people FAST when you are stuck on a boat with them almost 24/7. I found this out first when I had to say goodbye to my incredible friend Lydia, who I met only a week and a half before she left. It felt like I had known her for months. I don’t expect a single goodbye to be easy while I’m here.
  4. When making friends on a boat in Africa, conversation is much less small talk and much more in-depth conversations (unless you’re talking about whether or not it is acceptable to eat pineapple skins). And, surprisingly enough, you don’t talk a ton about your life at home at first- more about yourself, which is kinda cool.
  5. I really really really love playing guitar in my free time. This may seem like a weird thing to have finally learned after playing guitar for over six years, but I never really let myself have free time at home. Since the day I got here, I was itching to play, and I was SO excited to find out they had an extra I could play.
  6. It’s REALLY hard to remember to keep up with everyone back home. (My poor family…) Some people may find it easier than me, but I am honestly having a BLAST here and time gets away from me. I honestly don’t think to call or text anyone unless they send me something first. In addition, you make new friends quickly, and a lot of time is spent with them.
  7. Promising yourself you’ll start new habits or routines “once I’m there” is a terrible idea. Just don’t do it. Don’t put it off. It makes it a billion times easier to keep up with things if it’s already routine to do it.
  8. I have a desire to be wanted and appreciated (don’t we all?). But more so than I realized. Being in a new place with new people has given me a freedom I haven’t allowed myself to have back home. I can allow myself to be ME a lot easier here than back at home.
  9. I am a hugeeeeeee fan of traveling. This one was honestly a little weird for me because I knew I loved seeing new things, but I always feel like I miss home too much to enjoy it. Turns out, when you know you’ll be gone a whole year, you’re a lot less focused on getting home, and can enjoy the time you have in each place. I am so sad to be leaving Guinea this week, but I am SUPER excited to make it to the Canary Islands.
  10. Watching the sunset is an excellent use of your time. Do it as often as you can.

The last few weeks have been sooooo much fun. I’m loving every minute of this trip so far and it’s definitely beginning to feel like home. I’m so thankful for everything God has been doing since I made it here and all he has taught me since.

This is gonna be awesome.

My awesome work team